again -.-

i think the reason old cheekopek uncles come up to me is because i wear the ‘do you think i need something stupid ?’ shirt. cause when that stupid david came up to me, i was wearing that shirt. have i mentioned he called me in the morning on wednesday ? thank god i was bathing and didn’t pick up the call. and the second time, some random black guy said good morning to be, i was wearing that shirt too. and yesterday, i was at the bus stop, waiting for bus uh, then this chinese guy sat beside me. i turn face there not looking at him, but he smiled, probably thinking i was looking at him. while, i didn’t smile back cause the last time i smiled to a unknown uncle, he got my number. so i just turned away, but while doing that, i noticed he looked upset. and so, i keep trying to peek at him, and when i did, i realised he was staring at me. like, top and bottom. i was like, fuck. and to make it worse, you know normally before buses stop at the bus stop, singaporeans being singaporeans, would stand up even before the bus comes to try to see who can get on the bus first and try to cope a sit before it’s all gone. i didn’t. i sat down, wait for the bus to stop, then wanted to board the bus. and the cheekopek uncle stood up too, stand behind me while i was boarding the bus. then me being vulgar now thought, fuck, he’s stalking me ! so okay, i thought, he couldn’t do anything to me on the bus even though the bus was kinda empty, the bus drivers still there. i sat down, and he sat at the sit like opposite me and stared at me again, even though so many thousands sit was available, and i swore again -.- and luckily, this lady sat beside me, so he stopped staring then, and took out newspaper to read. i still didn’t know where he got that from, he wasn’t carrying anything and old men don’t carry bags, so was weird. but okay, after a few stops, the lady left, and he looked up, and stared at me again ! then i started panicking, cause i still had to walk home from the bus stop, a long distance, its at night, and the road i walk at is deserted. reaching my stop, i didn’t know whether i should alight or not, but seeing that there was others alighting, i stood up only when the bus stopped. and then i saw his leg move, and his eyes on me. then i swore, AGAIN. but wait, he didn’t stand up, he just kept staring at me, with that cheekopek face of his. so thank god uh. he just kept staring, i wanted to dig that eyes of his out ! but uh, i’m damn suay can. in about two months, i encounter 3 old cheekopek.

i just remembered, it’s halloween, and all i did was stay at home and use the comp, not even watch tv la and hardly text ! sian, what to do ? never find anyone to go out with.  didn’t text much since you’re away uh.

16 days.

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reading her blog.

chao ahlian. she looks like a slut.

week.

hello (:

another week over, and major mods is almost over too, just 3 more subjects to go, chinese, maths and science. didn’t study for history, geog, and who studies for english ? but will start studying. no distractions. sad to say, there’s less texting going on now. and less mousehunting too. monday had yoyo. i think dropped. wednesday had beep test. improved (: then all the other sprinting tests and stuff like that. uh, i dont remember the rest, juniors came to train too, that i remember (: sleep in all the way though. and it was nice today afternoon no training either. had orals, and got ron tok, i think i would fail though. studied downstairs, and i finally sort of understand algebra

18 days.

and,

mousehunt maintenance, good time to study, but then, no books (:

goodbye (:

going back to school soon, and test tomorrow, haven’t even studied yet, and yes, still mousehunting (: but what to do ? it’s so much more interesting than studying, seriously. oh and, yoyo test tomorrow. stamina dropped, confirm.

you’re leaving soon, almost time to say goodbye (:

sian, i wanna go back to sleep (:

study.

i have to start studying, seriously,  less mousehunting, more studying. wow, that’s actually coming from me-.-

i dunno how to study, seriously, actually,  i cant. i’ll have the notes in front of me but my mind would be some where else. how to concentrate ? damn hard la.

‘hSOIUEt’ ?

hellohello. didn’t go for the academy outing, wanted to go ? maybe. but idk. at least there’s one or two good things (:

i miss you, you know that ? (:

(:

(:

Jennifer Rewers and Jesse Lee are hardcore mousehunters !!!!

i’m done

G-

G- cheer up darling, i know its hard, but if he want to be like that that let him be. Yeah, you still love him, but if he want to hurt you like that, at this time, then fuck him, he’s not worth it la darling. take your time to let go. yes, he left you at your time of need, but maybe its better this way, let everything out, rather than grief over something, and when you finally feel better, grief about something else all over again. Stay strong babe.

and yeah, jerk, yes i mean you. did you really think about her before you decide to make that decision ? or were you just thinking about yourself.  yet, who was the one who wanted to patch ? and ask her not to give up so soon ? and now who gave up or everything and ask for break ? everything is coming back to you you asshole.

Guys are like that.

At the start, ‘Yes, i’ll love you forever’

But at the end, ‘i don’t love you anymore’

For the guy, it’s like killing a fly, no big deal.

But for the girl, they cry.

Yeah, girls probably make a fuss out of everything,

but girls are also the one who’re suffering.

Guys will just like bo chap and like, ‘oh, okay, like that, i can move on, that little bitch can too.’

In a relationship, it’s always the same.

It starts like this,

Boy-At last, i can hardly wait.

Girl-Do you want me to leave ?

Boy-NO! don’t even think about it.

Girl-Do you love me ?

Boy-Of course, always.

Girl-Have you ever cheated on me ?

Boy-NO! Why are you even asking ?

Girl-Will you kiss me ?

Boy- Every chance i get.

Girl-Will you hit me ?

Boy- Hell no! Are you crazy ?

Girl-Can i tryst you ?

Boy-Yes!

Girl-DARLING!!

But ends like this- read from the bottom to the top.

WTF, guys are all the same. Standard jerks. only like one in a million will one actually be the one who would be grieving instead of the girl.

We should change it, instead of the guy breaking up with the girl, do it the other way round (:

random-ing

mousehunt is under maintenance, again, standard, every sunday. so sian la. today not going back school either. what to do what to do. Wanna go out but lazy, and can’t find anyone to do so. Major Mod is here, so people are just studying, or those who don’t care are either playing or simply slacking. Haven’t started on revision yet. my mother ask me why i don’t study. She always says, if only you’re studies were as good as your games, which is true la i simply don’t bother studying at all. games are so much more interesting. i should start growing up.

Sports school is stressing. and i admit that, the very first reason why i wanted to come to ss is because i wanted to see less of my mum. and i still do, there’s just something different now. but sports school wasn’t an easy path and i kinda regret.

Although not all is shit in sports school.

I’m going to sleep well waiting for mousehunt maintenance to be over. I guess you’re DOTA-ing right now anyway.